How do you know its right?
How do you know this is your soul mate?
How do you know this is what really turns you on?
How do you know you can trust yourself to know if its true or not?
After years of being in this fantasy world, where nothing is what it seems, fantasies of any kind can be fulfilled at any moment; this world that is so far removed from the actual world we live in. When I’m in this world its like I walked into a chapter from The Chronicles of Narnia. When I step out of this mystical world for a fresh of breath air, I actually feel like I’m choking. Like a fish out of water. After 5 years I have changed. In a way that is now opposite of what I was when I entered this world. I used to feel out of place like I didn’t belong, I didn’t understand anything or anyone. I felt like the freak at the freak-show. Now its normal. When I’m not in this smutty world I feel like an outsider, I’m not a normal person anymore. I’ve evolved into something greater than “normal” and that my friend is beautiful.
This urge to write a blog came from some completely different idea, but once I start writing I kind of let my fingers take over and allow my brain to release whatever its been holding back, so enjoy.
Seriously though. In this day and age, how do we know what to believe is real vs. what is what we wish to be real?
I’ll tell you.
Sit down, alone.
Put on some music or be in a completely silent room.
Listen to your breathing, your heart beat, get your heart in tune with your body and mind.
Ask yourself the question you desire, and deep down you hold the answer.
Sometimes it takes shutting off the whole world and any influence and really listening to yourself.
**When you don’t like something and someone offers it to you, right away you say no. If you are not sure if you want any at the moment you hesitate to think if you want it now. When you need an answer try what I mentioned above and you’ll be surprised how quickly you will know the truth.**
I think between the current events in my life and the things my loved ones have told me about life and my future… well I guess I just go to thinking and I had the urge to write… it may not even make sense but I kind of promised myself I’d start writing more again.
If you’d like to respond you may but no pressure ;)
Have a beautiful day, do something to pay it forward today! :))