We’re going to Vegas #TeamTLF! #BlogMonday

Hey Hey Everyone!

I will be at the Avn Expo at the hard rock hotel in VEGAS!!!

Come see me:

17th: 12-2pm @ MunkeyBarz AND 3-7PM @ LA Direct Models

18th: 11am-2pm @MunkeyBarz AND 3-7PM @ LA Direct Models

19th: All Day

I’m super excited to sign with LA Direct Models and MunkeyBarz for the first time at this convention. It is going to be a great time!

See u there #TeamTLF!!

xoxo

TLF

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Bring joy to someone and hang out with ME! #BlogMonday #TeamTLF

Hello!!

Its the season of giving!!
Ill be hosting a toy drive at Sardos Bar in Burbank… PornStar Karaoke … Tuesday the 18th with Mofo Wear! It is also Nicki Hunters birthday party.

I’d love for you to come support and hang out! Please bring a toy over $10.

See you there!!

Xoxoxo
TLF

Pop Art Blog; Happy #TittyTuesday #TeamTLF!

ORDER MY BOOK BITCHES! Well its @FrankNitt’s too LOL! #TeamTLF

Frank Nitt (of Frank-N-Dank) – Stadium Music (HARDCOVER) (Audio CD)

The moment we have all been waiting for! Well the moment I have been waiting for… lol… it’s finally here! 

You know June is my birthday month so you better buy a book to support your girl! 

Yes… your favorite dirty movie Goddess can do other things…like write a book! hahaha! 

I am so happy right now…. Frank and I spent a lot of time figuring out how to write, what to write, what to keep out, and getting it ready and delivered to Traffic ENT on time….

It all paid off Frank! Look at us now… its here! I am so proud of us!! More of you… this book/album combo is about to blow the world away! Your talents and skills are all laid out for the world to see now. You produced basically that whole album on your own… I know! I watched it happen in my house! lol I am so honored to be able to write the Foreword and be your Ghost writer… it wasn’t easy but it was completely worth it! Congrats baby!

To my fans…. thank you for your encouragement to keep writing, to do what makes me happy, and for supporting  me and Frank by pre-ordering Stadium Music/The View From The Underground. lol! 

Wow! I am soooo happy and excited right now… I don’t know what else to say!  

Time to pop some bottles! 

xxo

TLF 

Yea boi! #FreeAgent Status!

Hey there Lovers and Friends!

As some of you have heard I am now a Free Agent in the porn world! This is good and bad, but right now it is a good thing! Let me explain…

The main reason girls like to have an agent is laziness. They just don’t want to deal with the business side of porn. I don’t blame em, but I am not them!

The bad part about being a Free Agent falls to the old saying, “Out of sight, out of mind.”

So it is easy to think, “Well what are you doing TLF!? Get yourself a new agent!”  NOT SO FAST!

I think my fans (#TeamTLF) can help me more than an agent can. Seriously! Have you seen my twitter fans lately? They/You are AHHHHMAZING! Thank you for RTing my wishlist and requesting me @ you favorite companies!

 

Now for the positive side of being on #FreeAgent Status:

- I am responsible enough to handle my own bookings.

- I know how to be professional

- I am in control of my career and what type of shoots I do.

- I collect my own money and don’t have to wait on my agent to “have time” to give me MY money!  LOL

- Don’t have to pay an agent a % of my earnings after I did ALL of the work.

- Don’t have to worry about an agent & their “politics”  prohibiting me from being booked.

- I will be able to make Stress Free SMUT NOW! YAY!!!!

 

Listen, there are pros and cons to everything and every situation. However, I have been performing for 3 years now. Until I find someone who actually knows what to do with a smart, professional, beautiful model like myself… I am going to enjoy this to the fullest!

 

So hope this little update helped… I just want to say THANK YOU! one more time to #TeamTLF… You are the reason I keep going!

 

xxo

TLF

 

p.s. I will  be doing a live twitter interview at 1pm PST tomorrow!

12 Reasons to Vote TLF Miss FreeOnes 2012

Today is the day! The Freeones.com Miss FreeOnes 2012 competition has begun!

Yes this is mostly just a popularity contest and it is highly unlikely I will make it far… BUT I am still going to try! And hey! Maybe #TeamTLF will surprise me!

Anywho, I need your votes! You might need a reason or two why sooooo…. TAHDAHH!!! Here is a list of 12 reasons to VOTE me as 2012 Miss FreeOnes:

1. I am your ultimate fantasy, and Goddess of #TeamTLF!
2. I post free pictures on my social media tools!
3. You and I both LOVE Freeones.com!
4. My Picture would look great next to Bree and Sophie’s!
5. I am active on the Freeones.com forum!
6. I love sex more than LIFE!
7. I love my fans and interact with them regularly!
8. I want to start school…  and this would help big time!
9. I also want to launch FoxxyChef.com.. the right way… and it cost $$$$ so If I win I will be able to do that!
10.  I will donate a portion of the winnings to Star Paws Rescue, a nonprofit animal rescue.
11. IF I win.. YOU win! I will send 100 fans an autographed 8×10…..
12.  and Finally! I will use a portion of the winning check to pay for the whole day of a FUCK MY FAN shoot! 

 

 

New Year! New Tara!

“Our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world as being able to remake ourselves.” ~Gandhi

Here are five steps to help you become the CEO of your own happiness: 1. Put yourself at the top of your list. This means tuning in to what your heart is telling you on a regular basis, caring for your physical and spiritual health, and slowing down enough to allow yourself to receive and enjoy life. Doing this will enable you to offer your best self to others. 2. Set boundaries. This means saying “no” more often than you may be used to. Saying “yes” to obligations that are not a fit for your emotional fitness or priorities will only lead you to feeling over-extended and stressed out. 3. Approach each day from a mindset of positivity and gratitude. Work to get into this place as soon as you wake up each morning. This leads to endless possibility. Focus on positive thoughts and keep an eye out for open doors, open arms, and open minds. 4. Look closely on a regular basis at what you’re tolerating. Ask yourself if there are changes you can make to reduce or eliminate things or relationships in your life that are draining your energy and dimming your light. 5. Remember that the people you spend the most time with have a huge impact on the quality of your life. Choose carefully and then spend lots of time with them, especially the ones who make you laugh. by Kristi Blicharski  Daily Wisdom from Tiny Buddha for 12/19/2011

I signed up to the daily emails from tinybuddha.com some months ago. It has helped me through some tough times. It has also guided me to make wiser choices on my good days. I might just be acknowledging that some of my success recently is due to this site, or the author Lori Deschene. So thank you Lori.

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Happy New Year Lovers of #TeamTLF!

Thanks for starting the year with me and my little blog.

Just to give you an update…

A lot… I mean A LOT of stuff has happened since I last wrote. My “new life” as I like to call it, has been very entertaining to say the least. Like really… I wish I had a camera crew following me… then again I’m glad there’s not! lol!

So lets see.. What’s new? I moved back to LA. I’ve created some amazing smut. Found out I got nominated by AVN and XBIZ! My twitter got hacked, so I created a new one, then twitter got my hacked account back. I partied with Jessica Drake on NYE! (My girl crush.. shhh!) My dog got bit on her 2nd b-day. I got word on my book with Frank Nitt. I’ve seen who my true friends are in LA. I’ve also found true love in LA, but that’s old news. Ummm… and now I’m playing with my new pink wannabe Hitachi!

Anyways, I have been “falling off the wagon,” if you will. No I am not on drugs… I am on LIFE. What I mean by “falling off the wagon” is simply a metaphor for me back peddling to my old ways. I will be doing so well, and I’ll forget that it takes work to keep this amazing momentum I get from time to time. That is the problem. From time to time. So when I fall, I stop doing things that make me happy and keep me focused. I let work consume me and forget about the daily pleasures of my life. I also tend to look more at the negative than the positive. When I read the tiny buddha blog (When Enough Is Better) I had to retweet it. I was happy to see that many of my twitter followers checked it out. It hit the nail on the head! I have a beautiful life. It gets tough at times, but the good is so… GOOD! Unfortunately, with depression and anxiety it is very easy to forget the good.

This is why I have promised myself that instead of making new years resolutions, I will make goals for 2012. My first goal is to write my goals on paper by Jan 13th. LOL! I want to stay on track this year. This mental shit I have to deal with is temporary. I was able to identify why it was happening. Now it’s up to me to fix it. It isn’t that hard to be happy. You just have to be true to yourself and love yourself. That is the hard part. Getting to that point.

I guess it’s kind of ironic my account got hijacked.. It forced me to start over with my twitter, but it also checked me on my life. Like.. is it really that big of a deal that I lost 20k followers? Well at first, I was mad. Like, how can this person hijack my account, post these weird personal sounding messages, block my new account so I can’t talk to them. Then DM my followers and demand I pay to get it back!? Luckily, twitter support is awesome and they got to the bottom of it and I have my account back! It reminded me of my psycho ex-fiance Mr. Goodbar. (Yeah… I was actually engaged to that monster, but that’s for another blog.) How someone can come into your life and seem like they are cool, but the whole time they had their own agenda. I say it’s ironic this happened because I was falling at that time. I needed to be reminded that I literally got a second chance at life. I cannot let myself go back to my old self. Yes, it would be easier, but it’s not the way.

I am so much happier now. I have such a better understanding of myself. I feel excited to shoot again. I also feel excited for life again. It’s wonderful!

I feel like every scene I do now is my next award worthy scene LOL… but that is how good the sex is! I feel so comfortable in my own skin for the first time in my whole life. I am not going to let anyone or anything get in the way of that.

After all, New Year. New Tara. The best has yet to come.

xxo TLF

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P.S. I wrote this really late at night so… sorry if it doesn’t make sense.. or is written poorly LOL

Guess I’ll Go Eat Some Worms

I think that will be the name of my second book!

Do you know what childhood tale that is from?

Anywho… I have begun the process of writing a book. If you ever checked out TheViewFromTheUnderground.com you know that there are a few steps…

First I have to write out ideas of what I want to write about. It’s called a Brainstorm Session…

Then I make a list of important people and events that I want to include in the story… it’s also a reference guide when editing..

Next I like to make an outline… yup just like any good paper in school it needs an outline..

Finally I get to write!

This is the hard part…. at least today… I am sort of having a writer’s block… and it’s not that I don’t know what to write about… It’s that I know I have to remember a lot of stuff about my life… Right now I am happy… and to sit and write about my past and some very intimate stuff and then publish it… it’s kind of a big hairy ball sack deal! lol No seriously… I am opening up my heart and life with you. So you can see the world through my eyes for a day. Hopefully you will learn something from this, but I am just hoping you support it and are entertained by it. This whole project puts me in a very vulnerable position, but it is a position I am looking forward to being in with you.

Stay tuned for updates!

And until then check out my store for new DVDs, VODs, and Sex Toys

New DVDs

And remember if you grant me or my dog @CookieFoxx a wish from our amazon wishlists we will send you a thank you gift to the address you include on the gift tag!

http://amzn.com/w/9LG9V5QABJF0

Naughty Kisses and Wet Dreams!

oooooh ya and over the weekend I did a photo shoot with a local NW photographer… here is a RAW pic

Looking in the distance

xoxo

TLF

A New Beginning…. #TeamTLF

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet.

Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”

-Helen Keller

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It has been a little over a month since I dropped a big load of reality on you… so I thought I’d update you….. Enjoy!

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What does true happiness and freedom look like?

Right this second, it would look something like me. I have never been happier or felt so free as I do right now. You are probably wondering why and how?

I haven’t been shooting xxx movies for a couple months now, but I have wrote a book, started my second one, and began a journey of healing in that time. I was hoping that I would take a couple weeks to a month off from shooting, while I had time to relax and write, then return to LA. That is exactly NOT what happened. LOL

I left LA shortly after I started to break down. I wouldn’t call it a burn out, but it was damn near close to that. I have been battling anxiety and depression for some time now. Through lots of medical marijuana and a very promiscuous life style I was able to ignore a lot of the problems that needed to be resolved. One day I woke up and realized that’s not how I wanted my life to be like, especially if I wanted to become the woman I desire to be one day. Luckily, after a recent long 6 day vacation, I feel like I am so close.

Not only did I have time to reflect and correct, but I got to learn and apply in a safe environment. I am so thankful for the people that have helped me in this rough patch.

I am very excited for my future. I feel so confident now, so sure of myself, and very inspired. A new beginning is now at my doorstep. I can either close the door and ignore the opportunities that lay ahead. OR I can open the door with confidence and walk down the path of the unknown with my head held high. I think the second one sounds better!

You know that saying, “don’t burn bridges because you never know when you will need to cross it again?” Well there are some bridges that need to be burned and some that need to be well protected. Yes I have dealt with a lot of scum bags in the 3 years of being an adult entertainer, but I have also come across some really amazing people as well. That being said, I still haven’t decided if I want to come back to being a full time porn chick, but I do know this wonderful world of erotic pleasure is part of me now. I may not be on Paul Cantor’s “top 100 pornstars” list, but I am very loved by my dear fans. That, my friend, is what matters the most.

“One is truly free when they are the master of their own mind.” -Unknown

I have discovered this quote to be so true in the last couple weeks. I had so much doubt, and “what if” thinking going through my head it was pathetic. The worst part about it is I let it get the best of me. Not once but twice did I try to take my own life. It is a very scary place to be in…. I hope you don’t ever have to go down that road, hence why I am opening up and being so RAW for you. I got to the point where I didn’t care anymore! I didn’t even care about the people that would mourn my death every year on the same day. Never did I want to go there or even be able to understand what it feels like to want to kill myself. It’s shitty. It happened and I survived.

“Happiness is an inside job!” -John Powell

After going to the dark side, I was able to see the light.

Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to see and appreciate what you really have. Life is one big roller coaster for me, it always has been and it might continue to be. This time though, I am a little more prepared. Nothing is worth taking your life. Not a big debt, a lover, a dead cat, or even doing porn instead of going to college to be a nurse. NONE of that is as important as my life.

 I am currently writing a book, again. It is going to be a memoir of my life leading up to porn and my new beginning. I hope you will support & buy it once it comes out in many months to come. I don’t want to write an essay, but I hope you were able to understand this rant.

Until next time,

Stay naughty!

xxoxxo TLF

#TeamTLF

Confident, Productive, Accomplished #HappyGirl #TeamTLF

Howdy!

Just wanted to give you a quick update to let you know what I have been working on…

In the months that I have been away from shooting adult videos…. I have been writing a book! If you would like to read more about it please go to http://www.TheViewFromTheUnderGround.com (copy&paste).

I am truly honored to be apart of this project. Frank Nitt has produced his first, Full-Length Solo Album “Stadium Music.” This book, “The View From The Underground” is a memoir of his journey through Hip-Hop. I have been lucky enough to have a very amazing relationship with this man, but I have also been able to witness some magical transformation as a musician.

Once he started to open up to me and tell me stories about things no one has ever heard before, or only the really close homies from childhood would know about, I knew his true fans would LOVE and Cherish this book. Luckily, I do believe the book and album will be released together. Its a good thing. After you read the book I think it will help you understand and appreciate the music more. So stay tuned for the release date… We will be dropping it soon.

I also have two more books I plan to release within the next two years. I have begun a million projects, like a typical Gemini would, but now I am actually focusing on one at a time. I really hope you all stick around to see where this new journey takes me. I am excited, nervous, happy, and proud all at the same time. I know you will enjoy these future projects to come.

Check out my tumblr for your sexy Labor Day pic (ToLiveandFuck.com) then RT the blog (TheViewFromTheUnderground.com)

xoxo

TLF