We’re going to Vegas #TeamTLF! #BlogMonday

Hey Hey Everyone!

I will be at the Avn Expo at the hard rock hotel in VEGAS!!!

Come see me:

17th: 12-2pm @ MunkeyBarz AND 3-7PM @ LA Direct Models

18th: 11am-2pm @MunkeyBarz AND 3-7PM @ LA Direct Models

19th: All Day

I’m super excited to sign with LA Direct Models and MunkeyBarz for the first time at this convention. It is going to be a great time!

See u there #TeamTLF!!

xoxo

TLF

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LADIRECTMODELS.COM                 @DirectModels

Bring joy to someone and hang out with ME! #BlogMonday #TeamTLF

Hello!!

Its the season of giving!!
Ill be hosting a toy drive at Sardos Bar in Burbank… PornStar Karaoke … Tuesday the 18th with Mofo Wear! It is also Nicki Hunters birthday party.

I’d love for you to come support and hang out! Please bring a toy over $10.

See you there!!

Xoxoxo
TLF

Pop Art Blog; Happy #TittyTuesday #TeamTLF!

ORDER MY BOOK BITCHES! Well its @FrankNitt’s too LOL! #TeamTLF

Frank Nitt (of Frank-N-Dank) – Stadium Music (HARDCOVER) (Audio CD)

The moment we have all been waiting for! Well the moment I have been waiting for… lol… it’s finally here! 

You know June is my birthday month so you better buy a book to support your girl! 

Yes… your favorite dirty movie Goddess can do other things…like write a book! hahaha! 

I am so happy right now…. Frank and I spent a lot of time figuring out how to write, what to write, what to keep out, and getting it ready and delivered to Traffic ENT on time….

It all paid off Frank! Look at us now… its here! I am so proud of us!! More of you… this book/album combo is about to blow the world away! Your talents and skills are all laid out for the world to see now. You produced basically that whole album on your own… I know! I watched it happen in my house! lol I am so honored to be able to write the Foreword and be your Ghost writer… it wasn’t easy but it was completely worth it! Congrats baby!

To my fans…. thank you for your encouragement to keep writing, to do what makes me happy, and for supporting  me and Frank by pre-ordering Stadium Music/The View From The Underground. lol! 

Wow! I am soooo happy and excited right now… I don’t know what else to say!  

Time to pop some bottles! 

xxo

TLF 

Part 3: Moments with Tara Lynn Foxx

Moments with Tara Lynn Foxx, Part 3

Courage

By Rich Moreland, November 2011

Book writing is a time eater and I’ve been working to get my manuscript ready for the editor’s pen. I lost track of TLF for a couple of months and when porn models I know disappear off my radar and their names don’t come up in new releases, I get concerned.

So I turned to Tara’s blog for updates and saw “Some Heavy Shit” (August 2011).

It was time for a phone call . . .

“I doubted myself when I talked with you,” Tara told me. She was referring to a conversation we had months ago. Keeping her “game face” up and running, she did not let on then that her self-esteem was under fire.

On this late November afternoon, our talk was less light-hearted though almost immediately, Tara assuaged my concerns that she might be spiraling in a direction that was not good.

How do you spell relief?

She is doing fine, taking some time off, getting ready to reenter the swirl of an industry that the late porn pioneer Marilyn Chambers claimed, “eats up girls and spits them out.”

After being reassured that she wasn‘t suicidal, I was nagged by the urge that I needed to do something (with me that means write) to send her some love. We said “goodbye” with the promise to speak again soon and I immediately dug into my computer files to locate an unpublished piece I crafted some time ago. It was about courage in the adult industry and Tara’s strength of character called it to my mind. She was not the subject of it then, but is a subject for it today.

Here is an excerpt.

“Porn girls are vivacious, attractive, naturally hedonistic, and draw instant attention. But despite their ‘money and fame’ persona, the cost is high. Their bodies are penetrated and used for profit and the glamour can sometimes reek of men who stink in body and soul.”

In Tara’s case the cost was extracted from her spirit. If you read her blog entry you’ll see what I mean.

Here is more from the same piece.

“For those not in the business, the thought of exposing one’s body, engaging in sex acts of various kinds, and having it displayed on the internet for the world to see is overwhelming and prohibiting. It can lead to feelings elucidated by Tera Patrick. ‘We’re all hos on this bus,’ she said.

The human emotion of courage is on display in pornography to a greater extent than we realize. Striving for acceptance is basic to our survival and rejection hurts. We want people to believe in what we do, the decisions we make. For a porn performer, the personal issues for entering the business may be varied—economic concerns, lack of opportunity, a free spirited sexuality, or a sense of adventure. But whatever the reasons, courage is necessary. Without it, the human spirit collapses.”

What happens when the unscrupulous—in the porn business think agents, producers and directors—abrade and smash a performer’s ego, in effect reducing a woman’s personhood to what can be shoved into three holes? Such a contemptuous exploitation is particularly devastating to an eighteen-year-old whose naiveté is stripped as bare as her body.

Respect is non-existent.

In Tara’s case, her inner fortitude was battered, but not buried. She remolded it into a resilience that continues to cope with two demands in her professional life: perfecting her on screen performance and excoriating the stench of a casting couch that brutalizes and numbs.

Everyone has doubts, but in porn they can be crippling. The average career, after all, runs about eighteen months. Some make it longer. Nina Hartley, Bobbi Starr, Aurora Snow, and Madison Young come immediately to mind. But it is daunting.

Porn means putting your vulnerabilities on the line for all to see, hoping your looks and the ability to turn a good fuck keep you sane.

“Remember the camera, sweetheart, give it a look and point your toes.” The director cajoles as the crew prepares to shoot the DP. Bear in mind, not every producer cares if a model can stomach the presence of co-stars she dislikes who are popping three Viagra to make her day a little longer. And, don’t forget the wretchedness of a dirty bathroom, or the terror of anal without a condom.

“If you won’t do it, Sweetheart, I’ll find somebody who will.” It’s on-the-set extortion and along with the slime of wheedling agents becomes ugliness at its basest level.

As Tara informs us the industry is full of scumbags.

Failure, defined as looking too mechanical or being resistant to demands—that little extra for a few more bucks not spelled out in the call sheet—costs a performer work. And if she decides the business is not for her, it becomes pack up time; go home with the haunting memory that her short career is out there forever. Social media lights up and her high school friends go online to find out if she is shaved as smooth as a baby’s butt.

Most egregious is when the payday tragically depends on deals struck before the shooting starts. Paved with false promises, the first round is sex for free. The emotional pain is overwhelming or totally denied.

Tara knows this all too well.

That’s why the business’s famous adage is, “you don’t fuck to get a job, fucking is the job.”

Tara’s been hosed while learning the business and again behind the cameras within it. A porn generation ago, the infamous Traci Lords was said to service the crew when not in front of the camera. But Traci was a manipulator, who turned her talents into a kind of porno blackmail. At eighteen, Tara was wettest behind her ears, just a kid like many others who wanted to please.

There is a reason why the industry refers to talent as boys and girls. It advertises a scene as boy/girl; a performer puts on her resume that she is available for girl/girl work or boy/boy/girl shoots. Talent is infantilized, second-class citizens in an billion dollar industry, a throw away commodity. And if you didn’t know, there are no residuals when a film is marketed or scenes are extracted later for compilations.

Bill Margold, porn’s eminent historian, has said many times that the adult industry should hug the “kids,” as he calls the models, but would rather fuck them instead.

But, I will tell you this. Tara Lynn Foxx is a survivor. When I said of her in a post on this blog that she could roll through an interview like the baddest big boy in a monster truck rally, I was not kidding.

When her confidence crashed down around her, doubts about loss of control surfaced. Questionable decisions that were not always in her best interests piled up and depression moved in for a stay. Trust took a hike.

But with a person of Tara’s courage, recovery flickers softly at first, then roars like a fire.

I know because she told me; I could hear it in her voice.

She can “put on her face,” as she calls her professional demeanor. But the true test of strength comes when she is “not on anymore” those moments when her porn persona melts away and she morphs into the “natural” Tara: honest and sweet with those captivating eyes.

This woman has mettle, that inherent quality of temperament that crafts toughness and internal strength. She can follow her passions while shielding herself from the dirt flung by critics and abusers. Her inner sanctuary has not collapsed.

Best of all, she knows this.

This little piece of writing is an emotional and psychological obituary for the “kid” Tara once was and an introduction of a Tara that has vacated girlhood to become a “woman” in a tough industry. She has experienced death and rebirth accentuated with spirit and spunk.

Doubts will always be part of every person, as I shared with her in our conversation. I’ve had mine and you, her fans, have had yours.

Our inner strength, the belief in ourselves, never goes away; it just hibernates, waiting to be called up in time of need like the army reserve.

But let’s remember the words of Ringo Starr, it is nice when we get “a little help from our friends.”

Tara could use a little boost at her back right now. This is where you come in. Send her a comment, email, or make a phone call.

She has my trust and faith. How about yours?

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A New Beginning…. #TeamTLF

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet.

Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.”

-Helen Keller

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It has been a little over a month since I dropped a big load of reality on you… so I thought I’d update you….. Enjoy!

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What does true happiness and freedom look like?

Right this second, it would look something like me. I have never been happier or felt so free as I do right now. You are probably wondering why and how?

I haven’t been shooting xxx movies for a couple months now, but I have wrote a book, started my second one, and began a journey of healing in that time. I was hoping that I would take a couple weeks to a month off from shooting, while I had time to relax and write, then return to LA. That is exactly NOT what happened. LOL

I left LA shortly after I started to break down. I wouldn’t call it a burn out, but it was damn near close to that. I have been battling anxiety and depression for some time now. Through lots of medical marijuana and a very promiscuous life style I was able to ignore a lot of the problems that needed to be resolved. One day I woke up and realized that’s not how I wanted my life to be like, especially if I wanted to become the woman I desire to be one day. Luckily, after a recent long 6 day vacation, I feel like I am so close.

Not only did I have time to reflect and correct, but I got to learn and apply in a safe environment. I am so thankful for the people that have helped me in this rough patch.

I am very excited for my future. I feel so confident now, so sure of myself, and very inspired. A new beginning is now at my doorstep. I can either close the door and ignore the opportunities that lay ahead. OR I can open the door with confidence and walk down the path of the unknown with my head held high. I think the second one sounds better!

You know that saying, “don’t burn bridges because you never know when you will need to cross it again?” Well there are some bridges that need to be burned and some that need to be well protected. Yes I have dealt with a lot of scum bags in the 3 years of being an adult entertainer, but I have also come across some really amazing people as well. That being said, I still haven’t decided if I want to come back to being a full time porn chick, but I do know this wonderful world of erotic pleasure is part of me now. I may not be on Paul Cantor’s “top 100 pornstars” list, but I am very loved by my dear fans. That, my friend, is what matters the most.

“One is truly free when they are the master of their own mind.” -Unknown

I have discovered this quote to be so true in the last couple weeks. I had so much doubt, and “what if” thinking going through my head it was pathetic. The worst part about it is I let it get the best of me. Not once but twice did I try to take my own life. It is a very scary place to be in…. I hope you don’t ever have to go down that road, hence why I am opening up and being so RAW for you. I got to the point where I didn’t care anymore! I didn’t even care about the people that would mourn my death every year on the same day. Never did I want to go there or even be able to understand what it feels like to want to kill myself. It’s shitty. It happened and I survived.

“Happiness is an inside job!” -John Powell

After going to the dark side, I was able to see the light.

Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to see and appreciate what you really have. Life is one big roller coaster for me, it always has been and it might continue to be. This time though, I am a little more prepared. Nothing is worth taking your life. Not a big debt, a lover, a dead cat, or even doing porn instead of going to college to be a nurse. NONE of that is as important as my life.

 I am currently writing a book, again. It is going to be a memoir of my life leading up to porn and my new beginning. I hope you will support & buy it once it comes out in many months to come. I don’t want to write an essay, but I hope you were able to understand this rant.

Until next time,

Stay naughty!

xxoxxo TLF

#TeamTLF

Tara Lynn Foxx takes over Exxxoitca LA 2011…

…with @ATCCompany! We had that place dancing and making it rain while your favorite starletts got on the pole and shook our tail feathers! LOL

I had so much fun last weekend! BBBBBBIIIIIIIGGG HUG and KISSES to all the lovely fans and celebs that came out to show support.

Hopefully, you all had as much fun as I did

I had a couple fans bring me gifts like autographed A’s Pink Bat, a bobble head and a binder full of trading cards and an Oakland Raiders Shirt… I love you guys! I also got a foot massage, butt massage, and my feet got sucked on too!

Here are some pics in case you missed out on all of the festivities.

OH BTW! I MET CHYNA!!!! YA! The Wrestler! I LOVE HER! I LOVE HER EVEN MORE NOW! She is so beautiful and sweet. I hope one day I can work with her. It would be a dream come true. I saw Back Door To Chyna and HAD to say hi and tell her thank you for doing porn!!

Thanks Exxxotica for doing the LA show!

xoxo

TLF

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

MEET ME THIS WEEKEND!

I will be at the Exxxotica LA Convention this weekend signing at the best booth in the venue…. Adult Trading Card Company!

That’s right. After a month long vacation I am ready to have the best weekend ever with my fans! I am looking forward to meeting new fans as well as catching up with my “FRANS” Friend/Fans

As you know I am a spokes-model for the one of a kind Adult Trading Card Company. They produce the best adult merchandise a fan can ask for! Trading cards! Over the last year I have been able to be apart of this amazing team. Not only do we have some of the hottest girls in the biz, but we have the coolest, most down to earth chicks alive! I swear… just come to the booth this weekend and see for yourself! If you are a a lover of collecting, then you want to be the first to get the limited edition trading card packs!

With every pack you buy you will get something extra! So come by and see what you can get for free, meet my sexy friends, and make sure to say hi to the team @ATCCompany on twitter!

I will be signing at the booth all three days…so come say HI!

(hopefully I will get a chance to meet Chyna… I heard she is going )

xoxo

TLF

Imani Rose, Lily Cade, Alison Tyler, Tara Lynn Foxx and Shay Fox at AVN

Some heavy shit!

 

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

xoxo

TLF

P.S. I love being your fantasy woman, and sharing my sexual desires with you. I am just at a point in my life that I need to heal from my past. I am the type of person that does things in hopes it will help someone else one day. So please do not take this as I hate porn or I regret it. Like I said it was a blessing in disguise. I just want there to be a change for the better!  HUGS AND KISSES!

Part 1: Moments with Tara Lynn Foxx

(For those that didn’t have the chance to read part 1 here it is! Enjoy! xoxo TLF)

“I’m One of the Luckiest Girls in Porn”

by Rich Moreland
February 2011

“I create this fantasy for you so you can orgasm and have great sex and hopefully learn things because I’m a girl that is so open to sharing.”

The words are those of rising porn talent, Tara Lynn Foxx, a pouty-lipped blonde with animated brown eyes. We’re in San Francisco’s famous “porn castle,” the rehabbed National Guard Armory that is the new home of Kink.com, the internet giant that markets a variety of BDSM and alternative sexuality websites. She’s up from L.A. to do a couple of shoots with their webmasters.

I’m playing hooky from my college teaching schedule to do research in SF. One of Kink’s gracious employees rounded up Tara for an interview before the 20-year-old left for the day.

We’ve just been introduced; my first impression is beyond positive.
Sitting down with porn actresses is somewhat routine for me, but I quickly discover that this girl is going to be a ride.

Confidence fills the space. Cool. But is she cerebral? I’m looking for information, something more than fan reaction to her latest shoot. Does she have presence? Can she roll through an interview the way the chief bad boy crushes cars at a monster truck rally?

As a former Alaskan governor would say, “you betcha.”

Sans makeup and dressed casually in shorts and top, TLF is engaging, smart, and a sweetheart with her time and energy. She has her opinions and does not back away from telling it from her side.

From the beginning, I learn that she likes people who ask her questions about adult entertainment because she believes it “sheds a positive light” on the industry. But she does have her reservations about too much of a good thing?

“If our taboo goes away, then I think it would hurt us. I don’t want a lot of people to think porn is easy to get into.” She admits that physical entry into the business is not difficult. Being suited for the job is another matter.

“You’re not going to last long if you’re not made for porn. It’s just not made for everybody.”

True. I’ve heard that before. Adult film models are the sexual elite of our culture, but industry survival is a product of self-will and intelligence. Tara at her tender porn age has a wisdom born of experience and hard knocks in an industry that can chew up a girl and spit her out. My interest in her is ascending.

We spend the time talking about Kink and condoms and the fun of porn. But that’s for another day. This account focuses on the beginning . . . .

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A few months later we reunite in Las Vegas during the 2011 AVN convention. I grab her (not literally!) for more interviews. In the non-stop four days of the gathering of porn fans and media types, this is no simple task.

TLF’s getting her hair and make-up readied for the awards show on Saturday night. We’re talking; the make-up artist ignores our conversation.

The topic is her background.

“I grew up in the Bay area, born in San Francisco, moved all around.  Right before high school I moved up to Oregon. Then after graduating headed to Washington to do webcam. Then down to L.A. to do porn.”

Webcam is an engaging start. I ask how it helped her transition into porn. Tara explains she got to do things for the first time with just herself and at her pace. The surprise was her interpretation what she was actually doing. “I though it was nude modeling, at home, for Playboy, things like that.” But it was more. She started penetrating herself with dildoes. Porn! And she was practically giving it away! But at 18, she was, as she puts it, naïve.

Her epiphany was immediate. Tara reasoned she could make more money and reach more people by doing straight up porn in the marketplace that caters to the adult film consumer’s demand—L.A.

Going there would make a difference.

“I’ll make more people cum, that’s what I was thinking,” she says with delight.

In all my interviews with Tara, she communicates a central notion that makes up the “TLF” personality. She cares about others and particularly her fans. Her background—a loving mother and a supportive sister—shapes this sensitivity.

“I am probably one of the luckiest girls in porn, because I didn’t have a super fucked up life when I grew up.” Tara talks about her mom raising her despite the absence of a father, and her mother’s Herculean efforts to support the family.

Tara also revealed her mother’s intuition. “My mom knew about my plans for getting into porn before I even came down to L.A. I was living in Oregon and I told my mom I was moving to L.A. and we really don’t have any family there anymore, so she’s like, ‘wait a minute, why are you going down there?’ ‘To be a model mom, an actress’.” Tara smiles in the impish way that is hers alone and adds,

“She was like, ‘ummm, you’re doing porn aren’t you?” Mothers have a way of knowing these things.

Though her mother was aware of Tara’s decision to enter porn, she is cool with it. Tara mentions that her mom is “very supportive and is actually in talks with me about doing [creating] lingerie for me.”

As for her sister, Tara is a little hesitant. “She knows I do porn, she’s so-so with it, but she loves me.”

Everyone who ever talks to a porn star wants to know about her first time with sex. So, I’ll ask for all of you.

For Tara, it was all about the Bay area lifestyle. It made losing her virginity as easy as jumping on public transit, or at least waiting for it.

Tara confesses what living in San Francisco means for a teenager, “you could get away with a lot more.” Her mom was working all the time and Tara spent long periods away from home, up to a week sometimes. “My mom wouldn’t say much because she assumed I was with my friend, at her house.” SF is a party town and Tara experienced more freedom than most teens and more opportunity to get into sexual mischief.

OK. So how did it happen? Tara is matter-of-fact.

“I was 12. I used to lie and say I was 16, ‘cause I looked older. I was with my best friend and we were leaving the mall and missed the last bus. We were walking to catch the Bart [Bay Area transit]. There were these really cute guys squirting water guns at each other and I yelled at them, of course, because I’m a big mouth and wild like that.”

Makes sense to me; TLF has an endearing sassiness that captures your attention straight away.

“We started talking and they were cute. We lied about our age and said we were older. They lied and said they were younger. They were like 18, 19 or something like that, and we were 12 and 13. It was kind of bad, but it was fun.”

Tara and her friend made a quick pact to lose their virginities that night, then and there. But surprises do occur. TLF did the dirty deed. Her friend backed out.

“I go through with it and I found out she didn’t.”

But there is a moral of sorts to this story. Tara’s friend later lost her virginity in a car. Tara smiles coyly and recalls, “at least I did in a bed.” Was she upset with her friend that fateful day? Not really. What Tara didn’t know was the lucky boy, whatever his age, who scored with her that day started her off on a run of pleasure that would take her into adult film at the too youthful age of 18.

Now for the follow-up that every fan wants to know. When was your first girl-on-girl experience?” I ask. Anticipating what I have heard from other models. I was not disappointed. It begins young; in Tara’s case, very young—she was 8.

“I would play with dolls and then go to a dark place and start making out and dry humping and stuff like that.” Everyone starts slow, but maybe not as early as 8.

“My first actual sex with a girl was in my senior year of high school.” That’s better. At least we’re heading in the direction of 18.

She turned out to be a hot “Latin chick,” Tara says, and confesses she’s always been attracted to Latin women. “She was the most beautiful thing ever and we did it in my mom’s house.” Probably in a bed, Tara picks her spots carefully.

She adds whimsically, “I might have a girlfriend again” someday but at that time “we were both seniors and we just clicked instantly.”

Clicking with Tara Lynn Foxx is natural and effortless because she is so affable and accommodating. On my list of porn models I’ve gotten to know, she ranks at the top.

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More is coming your way later . . . a little on kinkiness, safer sex, thoughts on the industry, and, of all things, feminism . . . . and most important, more about mom and going to L.A.

Rich Moreland, February 2011.